what's the cost of fame?

Why should fame change us? We are just ordinary guys. I have toured all over the world with the band. But, I always want to come home to Dublin."

-- Bono, 2001

My favorite Band

My favorite Band

I've got dreams to remember

I'm so f***ing tired the whole day! I was late in the office. Again. My whole week was a total mess. And I couldn't get enough sleep...and I think my memory sucks! I was texting Tin yesterday and she was telling me the name of this person na classmate namin in high school. She gave me the name, well of course i remember the name, but I couldn't recall the face or how she looks like! I was trying to dig in my memory baka somehow maalala ko pero wala talaga! ...la lang, para kasing imposible na bigla na lang na-erase sa isip ko yung mga ganong bagay...Anyway, wala lang. Naisip ko lang siya bigla. I think rest lang katapat ko. I'm just tired.

The wind that brought my heart back

It's over a year now since my mother has left (still I don't wanna used the term "passed away" 'coz it hurts)...still I don't feel like talking 'bout it in public or share the grief with my friends...it's not that I feel like they wouldn't listen or understand or even care...it's just that I don't wanna make it such a big deal for them or spoil the moments...it's just that I'm still angry inside. As much as I don't wanna feel bitter or something, but as i look back now, I think I am. She's the most loving person in the world and as much as the other half of my brain tells me I shouldn't be writing these, in my heart, it tells me otherwise. How could someone ignore the wonderful things that had left her broken...
...and I ended up forcing myself to grow up in a hurry...because most of the time I find myself needing her more than ever. And the whole thing controlled me somehow. I'm still struggling to be my old self. Sobra....